||11-11-2012 08:52 PM
37 Year Old ... just had my first kiss with another Guy.
There's a co-worker of mine that I've had a crush on for about 2 years now. I've been hiding the fact that I am homosexual by acting tough and talking with a deep voice.
One day, my co-worker did something extraordinary that made my heart flutter. Just as we finished work, I slipped over the forklift's padding and I almost fell on the ground, but then he saved me with his arms. I felt his huge biceps as he hugged me tightly and asked me "You aight bro" I said yes I'm fine I think you got something on your shoulder, when he looked away for a bit to check on his shoulder,
I quickly forced a kiss on his lips and forced my tongue into his mouth, and then he pushed me away and punched me in the face and kicked my nads about 4 to 5 times. As he continued to kick me, he kept calling me harsh names "u fukin f4g" and whatnot.
I thought he also liked me because he was always nice to me, and my heart is completely torn apart after the whole incident.
Please, I need advice on what to do next. I really would appreciate any input. I am crying right now and I am so depressed. I don't even feel like going to work anymore :(